If I Should Fail, If I Should Fold

Feeling really unmotivated right now. The wedding planning is coming together, so that I am excited about, but I feel otherwise really off-track and uncentered right now. And strangely cognizant that there must be hundreds of bloggers out there right now with at least one post of this ilk in their archives.

Why is lack of motivation and/or desire to get re-motivated not enough in and of itself to jump-start motivation? Wanting the thing is not enough. It is not the missing flint. And in many ways, it is it's own vacuum. Motivation is like love, it is a form of self-love [insert masturbation or auto-fellatio joke here]. And like love, wanting it does not make it so. You can sit at home and type into your blog all you want about you are ready for love, and how you want love in your life, but love does not fall into your lap. Love is a set of circumstances, bound by timing and mindset and fortune and sheer will, and then lit by a spark.

Maybe that's why I collected Zippos all those years. Who knew?